justice_is_blond: (I am truly sorry)
Anders ([personal profile] justice_is_blond) wrote in [personal profile] fleurdesel 2016-06-03 05:06 am (UTC)

As he can't forgive himself for the Chantry either, no matter how he wouldn't have been able to forgive himself if he'd done nothing, he can't really blame her for still holding that against him. The rest, though...

"I didn't know you'd spoken with Nate about your position." It's not an apology, but it's an acknowledgement, at least.

"I'm not going anywhere. We came back here instead of staying up North. This... complication... isn't going to vanish. The public figure position isn't going to go away because you feel fulfilled in it. There will not be anything that I can do to become less of a complication, or atone for the Chantry. That's not changing. What does seem to change is where I stand, and for every glimmer of hope I see there's something else that shuts it down, so I'm left with no idea. Is it truly unreasonable to want some sort of... stability? To find some way to be close again? I don't know what's happened with your track record now, but I--"

He blinks. "I was going to say I can't do worse than I have, but that sounds awful and dismissive, and I don't want to be dismissive. I want to figure this out and I miss you."

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