"I don't call things when I fear I am going to die." Or be lost forever in the fade. "You- you are being unreasonable. You know what your name carries, you know what our association costs me."
And yet it is coin she pays every day to keep her word, to mind him, and perhaps to attempt to reconcile what she knew before with the man he is now. The man he'd always been. It is that memory alone that has her calm rather than rising her voice, that has her exaspirated more than anything else. "You cannot ignore that, You do so, willfully, every day and act as though you have always been Detlef, you never did the things that you are hated for, and while that is how you cope and I do not begrudge it of you I am exhausted by the implication that I must drop everything and forgive you in your entirety when it is not that simple. You are not a thing. But this is complicated. Stop pretending that it isn't."
She sinks back in her chair, fingers combing through Remi's fur.
"And I never sign letters 'civilly yours'. It implies that I am uncivil otherwise."
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And yet it is coin she pays every day to keep her word, to mind him, and perhaps to attempt to reconcile what she knew before with the man he is now. The man he'd always been. It is that memory alone that has her calm rather than rising her voice, that has her exaspirated more than anything else. "You cannot ignore that, You do so, willfully, every day and act as though you have always been Detlef, you never did the things that you are hated for, and while that is how you cope and I do not begrudge it of you I am exhausted by the implication that I must drop everything and forgive you in your entirety when it is not that simple. You are not a thing. But this is complicated. Stop pretending that it isn't."
She sinks back in her chair, fingers combing through Remi's fur.
"And I never sign letters 'civilly yours'. It implies that I am uncivil otherwise."