"I wonder what the difference was." Compartmentalization at its finest: looking back academically rather than emotionally. She has shoved everything she felt about those few days into a box and tucked it under a dresser in the lowest portion of her mind where she never needs to think about it or look at it ever again. Or.

She wouldn't if Anders wasn't being so rationally unfair.

"If that had happened, you've a letter." Almost everyone she knows has one written. "Updating it has become wearying."