It's-- I mean, I think before the Dark Curse it might have been the same as here, except some people didn't even believe in witches and wizards. They knew stories about the Dark One, but... when you grew up in a village in the middle of nowhere, a lot of stuff seemed like maybe it was far fetched. But once you start looking, or... once you knew, you could see it more.
( She goes quiet for a second. ) I can't lie, magic scares me. I've seen things. I mean, I-- I have two different lives that were completely separate and I'm still trying to learn how to reconcile them. Magic did that. I lost who I was, but I... I got a chance to not be Red for a while, too, and that was kind of great. For a while I got to be someone who hadn't killed people and just wanted to see the world and figure herself out. The Dark Curse was meant to take away everyone's happy endings and tear them apart, but...
( But she wonders, sometimes, if she was happier. She knows she was happier, being someone else. )
So, I don't know. I think magic's dangerous. But I also know true love's kiss saved my best friend from a Sleeping Curse, and that wishes being granted can give some people purpose and freedom, they aren't all contracts to take your firstborn child. I mean, fire can burn you, but it can warm you through, too?
( A long sigh. ) I'm not explaining this very well. I think learning how to use something you have is important. If I hadn't been taught how to embrace the Wolf then I'd--
( Be dead, she suspects. ) -- have turned out very differently. Knowing how to be the Wolf without hurting people gives me freedom, and it gives me a way to protect people. But I don't want to be caged up for being a wolf, either.
So maybe some fear isn't bad? I mean, it's smart to be a little afraid of fire. But fire does so much more, right? I'm not saying people should go out and start juggling fire, either, I just think... the world would be worse if we were only afraid of fire and only ever used it practically. We wouldn't have a lot of stuff if we didn't learn to look at it differently.
( She is shaking her head at herself, and her voice is slightly muffled because her hand is resting over her face. ) Some words don't sound like words any more, God. Basically there's a place between ripping people's hearts out on a whim and trying to destroy the world and between living never having fun ever. That's the more succinct way to say all that.
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( Adelaide you precious precious nerd.
Well, Red makes a sound. )
It's-- I mean, I think before the Dark Curse it might have been the same as here, except some people didn't even believe in witches and wizards. They knew stories about the Dark One, but... when you grew up in a village in the middle of nowhere, a lot of stuff seemed like maybe it was far fetched. But once you start looking, or... once you knew, you could see it more.
( She goes quiet for a second. ) I can't lie, magic scares me. I've seen things. I mean, I-- I have two different lives that were completely separate and I'm still trying to learn how to reconcile them. Magic did that. I lost who I was, but I... I got a chance to not be Red for a while, too, and that was kind of great. For a while I got to be someone who hadn't killed people and just wanted to see the world and figure herself out. The Dark Curse was meant to take away everyone's happy endings and tear them apart, but...
( But she wonders, sometimes, if she was happier. She knows she was happier, being someone else. )
So, I don't know. I think magic's dangerous. But I also know true love's kiss saved my best friend from a Sleeping Curse, and that wishes being granted can give some people purpose and freedom, they aren't all contracts to take your firstborn child. I mean, fire can burn you, but it can warm you through, too?
( A long sigh. ) I'm not explaining this very well. I think learning how to use something you have is important. If I hadn't been taught how to embrace the Wolf then I'd--
( Be dead, she suspects. ) -- have turned out very differently. Knowing how to be the Wolf without hurting people gives me freedom, and it gives me a way to protect people. But I don't want to be caged up for being a wolf, either.
So maybe some fear isn't bad? I mean, it's smart to be a little afraid of fire. But fire does so much more, right? I'm not saying people should go out and start juggling fire, either, I just think... the world would be worse if we were only afraid of fire and only ever used it practically. We wouldn't have a lot of stuff if we didn't learn to look at it differently.
( She is shaking her head at herself, and her voice is slightly muffled because her hand is resting over her face. ) Some words don't sound like words any more, God. Basically there's a place between ripping people's hearts out on a whim and trying to destroy the world and between living never having fun ever. That's the more succinct way to say all that.