He's quiet for a few moments, sipping his tea again.
"It's got more details, like hearing the fantasies of my captors when it came to my upcoming execution. There'd been mounting frustration since my second escape; knowing that I was already skilled with healing didn't help win anyone over. When the first screams reached our ears, they didn't budge at right away. They were too pleased with themselves.
"There's the technicality that Jonas actually offered me a chance to run before the confrontation and I made it to the wall before realizing that there was still fighting going on and I couldn't just run, so I went back rather than seizing the best chance I would ever have. The Templars probably had my phylactery with them, I could have been presumed dead and they probably wouldn't have been searched before being burned, but no."
He exhales. It's not like he could have lived with himself if he'd kept running.
"Fighting through the Keep itself was brutal. I couldn't focus on healing alone, not even when Oghren joined us. There were so many of them, and that was my first day even seeing Darkspawn. You read about them, but seeing the ruin they can make is... It's something you can't wrap your mind around until you see it. I didn't want to join the Wardens, but at least it was a group I could find a common cause with, a cause I believed in. Mm. There's things that come after in that first week, like us coming across a would-be assassin in the cells and then him getting conscripted, but generally the longer version is just more details. Blood and fear and plenty of yelling about how I'm a maleficar because of the dead Templars I clearly hadn't killed."
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"It's got more details, like hearing the fantasies of my captors when it came to my upcoming execution. There'd been mounting frustration since my second escape; knowing that I was already skilled with healing didn't help win anyone over. When the first screams reached our ears, they didn't budge at right away. They were too pleased with themselves.
"There's the technicality that Jonas actually offered me a chance to run before the confrontation and I made it to the wall before realizing that there was still fighting going on and I couldn't just run, so I went back rather than seizing the best chance I would ever have. The Templars probably had my phylactery with them, I could have been presumed dead and they probably wouldn't have been searched before being burned, but no."
He exhales. It's not like he could have lived with himself if he'd kept running.
"Fighting through the Keep itself was brutal. I couldn't focus on healing alone, not even when Oghren joined us. There were so many of them, and that was my first day even seeing Darkspawn. You read about them, but seeing the ruin they can make is... It's something you can't wrap your mind around until you see it. I didn't want to join the Wardens, but at least it was a group I could find a common cause with, a cause I believed in. Mm. There's things that come after in that first week, like us coming across a would-be assassin in the cells and then him getting conscripted, but generally the longer version is just more details. Blood and fear and plenty of yelling about how I'm a maleficar because of the dead Templars I clearly hadn't killed."